Tag: Set is trying to be okay

Do you get paid to write for a living and/or would you consider writing for a living? You’re **incredibly** talented, and I know that talent isn’t all it takes to be a professional writer, BUT STILL. Talented! Also my secret agenda is that I could pay you monies to read more of your stories <3 I discovered your fanfiction work about a month ago and am eagerly waiting for the next installments of every story if yours that isn't currently completed! (I don't mean that in a pressurey way tho) <3 <3

That is a really wonderful thing to be told; thank you!

I would love to be a professional author; I’ve actually written a novel and two novellas (and multiple musicals and plays). None of them have been published, but I hope someday that they–or something else I write–will be!

In 2016, when I had my terrible plunge into the worst and longest depressive period of my life (the one I’m still struggling with), I started feeling like I didn’t have any talent, that my writing was bad, and I started hating my writing, and hating myself, and I stopped writing altogether for a long time.

Writing fanfiction and getting involved in fandom has helped me to feel a bit better about my writing–and myself–again. And I’m doing therapy and trying to get the right medication. (The medication is proving to be frustratingly elusive.)

I’m really, really, desperately hoping, that part of my recovery from this depressive period is going to involve me feeling more confident about my original writing, and that I’ll be able to go back to writing original fiction, as well as fanfiction. And that maybe, then, I’ll be able to eventually publish something!

It really means a lot to me that people like my writing, and it definitely means a great deal to hear that you’re interested in my original writing. It makes me feel like I’m not being unrealistic and presumptuous by thinking that I might be able to publish something, you know?

It makes me feel like maybe I can do it.

Hello, Set! How are you doing?

I am doing pretty okay! 

I’m waiting on a call from the new psychiatrist’s office to schedule an appointment, and I actually went to the endocrinologist today to see if any of my depression/periodic mood swings could, as my therapist suggested, be partially due to endocrine issues. 

The visit was…NOT ideal, but he finally agreed to test my hormones/adrenals after I phrased it “I just want to know for sure there isn’t anything wrong with my endocrine system”. and “I’m working on my depression and anxiety with a therapist and psychiatrist already; I just want to know I shouldn’t be doing some other supplemental thing, too.”

(jeez, you tell a doctor you’re depressed, and they act like it’s because you don’t want to get better; like. buddy. I wouldn’t be at your office if I didn’t want to get better.)

but! like I said, he’s going to do the tests, which is a relief!

And my cat is still doing well after recovering from her illness! 👑Her Majesty, Queen Cat of the World, and Princess of All is a source of great joy to me. 

( she loves riding in the car; my mother actually brought her along today when she came to pick me up from the doctor’s ❤ )

(( the cat’s name is actually snooks, but mostly we call her bunny. Or various royal titles, as you can see. Or ‘the cat’. Other cats are cat, but she is the cat. ))

Also-also! My birthday is soon! On February 12th! :DD And I am quite excited about that!

Thank you for asking about me! ❤